sometimes, just sometimes

So times I just wish I had made better decisions in life. I am aware of my act first and think about it way later. I get too emotional about things and seem not to let things go. I dislike this about myself, and I am so envious of those people who seem just to be able to put things behind them.

I feel like I am stuck in a place I don't want to be. Where I am lacking is my finances. I tend to get stressed out about my current financial issues, this will add to my anxiety and this just takes me back to my negative place. I don't want to be like this. I want change.

I recently lost my love of my college classes. I think it was due to being sick every other day added with Jorja being sick and out of school. Then probably the unwanted stress. I have all but two assignment done in this semester. My GPA went down a lot. But all I can do is do better. This is all I can do.

I will do better because I have no choice in this matter. I have learned not to rely on others, because I know how it will turn out. I want to be example to Jorja about how it's never to late. I know I can do it. Just sometimes, I get stuck in the negative thoughts I have.