Letting go...the pathway to surrender.

I am obsessed with "self-help" books. I have like 100 of them on my kindle, no lie. Most of them are the free one's you can get from Amazon. I have a few books of the author of "the Secret" I just love any books that I feel that can help my train of thought.

I recently bought, yes bought "Letting go..the pathway to surrender" by Dr. Hawkins. Apparently he's a major force in the "positive thinking is the way to go" movement. I was skeptical to purchase this book, like I've mention I am really cheap when it comes to buying books. I read the reveiws and it was highly praised. It was cheap, so I thought, why not? 

It's a kind of book where, when started you know you're going to probably read it again to absorb it. Maybe it's just my ADHD and lack of attention, that reading books like this effects. However when I first started I knew that this was a different type of book. It doesn't just stress that thinking positive will change your life. It explains why it is a person may think negative and how to change our deeper feelings that may cancel any positive thoughts. 

I know, it sounds weird. But I can totally relate to all of this. It also explains how, bitterness, hate, fear, anxiety, sadness, guilt, apathy and depression is all connected to one's health. This explains so much. I have in the past 3 years years or so, been dealing with a eating disorder, (not because I wanted to lose weight) had ulcers, weighed 89 pounds, major sinus infections and other health issues. All this is connected to the negative energy/feeling that I was harboring because I was more into being "positive" and not dealing with those negative things.

I now know why I could be happy, positive, looking forward to the great life one week and the next week be on the sailboat to despair. I see that thinking that way wasn't really helping me out. Those negative feelings were still there because I hadn't tried to deal with them.

Although this book is amazing read I don't think it's a heal all of negative feelings. It just tries to make one realize why we are sick, and negative and how to deal with those feelings in a way that may help our lives in the long run.

Right now I am on chapter 5 so I still have a ways to go. I will update on my success as soon as I can. I am on the last week of my 3rd semester of college!!!! I am doing ok, not the result as I would like to have. If I would have applied myself more I would've been doing better however, this winter has been filled with sickness. One week Jorja would be sick, then she would give it to me and repeat. I haven't been so ill like this before. This next semester will be more interesting, since I will be taking a Psychology class and a American Literature class as well.

Until to next time, stay positive!!!