Lisa

This is my part of the blog where I write about my friends who have impacted my life.

I met Lisa about 2003ish. She was friends with Jason Miller, from Godhead and he and I had a mutual friend (Dan, that I will no doubt blog about later). She was a very tiny cute goth girl. With big blue eyes and long dark beautiful straight hair. She was adorable.

You gotta to understand that this was a part of my life that I now refer to my Courtney Love life. Cause I was behaving, yes as Courtney Love would. Meaning, I was drunk much of the time I was out at Bars.

Lisa and I liked most of the same type of music. From what I remember she was really into Ours. Which later and even now I still love. We always went on most Wednesdays to the Dragonfly "pretty ugly club" hosted by JD and Taime Down. Lisa really liked shows and between her, me and Dan. I don't think we ever missed a band play.

I was close with Lisa, although I will admit we had a few drunk fights, like the one night where we both got kicked out the King-King for fighting. However there was a huge part of Lisa that was closed off, like there was a secret she didn't want anyone, maybe herself to know. If that makes since. I for that matter got really good with putting those things that hurt too much away, never thinking about them. Knowing that I really needed to seek someone to help me coupe with them. For me, those unattended denial of "issues" has literally destroyed my life. Pushed those people I loved, who loved me out of my life. Ah, but that is just a blog update for another time...back to Lisa.

I was close with Lisa, but not really. Soon she started dating the drummer of Marilyn Manson and
I guess that's where our story ended. Soon it went from.. I have a good friend name Lisa to running into Lisa last year at work to tell her I had a four year old.

I really wish I knew what went wrong, if anything. We didn't have a huge blow up fight. Maybe that would've been better at least I could walk away knowing why.

 It has always been my belief that when we meet people, crossed paths and became friends it's sorta fate. That the universe is saying "hey you, you need that person in your life-right at this moment." So as I write this, I truly believe that Lisa and I was were brought together by chance.

We had a lot of drunkish fun, a lot of fights over stupid things as boys. She understood me more than anyone. I guess in away we both were damaged and she knew and I knew that's just how it was.

She's been on my mind a lot. I guess when I moved here I left my old life there as well my friends. I always thought we would hang out again. But maybe she and I got all we were going to get from our friendships and just moved on.

I hope she's happy. I hope so many good things for my friend. Who has helped me and inpacted my life more than she will ever. Lisa if you are reading this, you are loved, remembered and oh so missed.