the one with Dan Herdia in it.

Wait, what 2 blogs on one day?!! oh yeah, it is.

Dan was a twenty something guy, who in the end broke my heart. Really broke my heart like no one has ever done before or since. He will always be known as the one who got away.

It was 2001 and just to fix the mix up in the "Lisa" blog I met her in 2001ish. And it was a typical Friday night when I got a call from Dino the guy who used to be in Fear Factory. Yes,that Dino. I used to know famous people. ha. Anyway, he called to say they were having a bday party at Bordners for some real famous producer named John. His last name has long since been forgotten. Dino and his girlfriend were going and since I hadn't nothing better to do, so did I. Jason Miller from Godhead was friends with Dan and we were soon introduced.

It wasn't a shock that I was drunk and soon before the end of the night, Dan and I were hard core making out. He wasn't my type at the time. Meaning he wasn't in a band, not tattoo or anything. Like maybe I hadn't mentioned before when I drink my standards go lower and lower.

Nothing happened that night but a beginning of a good friendship. I loved Dan. To me our friendship was like two senior citizens in nursing homes. Who don't have anyone else but themselves. We never made out after that, never taking it to 3 base.

Dan to me was my moon to my sun, my ice to my soda. We spoke every single day. I called him at 6am, to cry I didn't know where I was at when I had passed out in a strange car and was freezing. We had a friendship as I hadn't ever had before or since. As previous blogs stated, I truly believe that the universe brings you the friendships you are meant to have at that very time in life.

We went to shows, he was a huge fan of Mike Patton. One show Jason Miller had arranged it that we go back stage and meet the famous Mike Patton. Which I am quite sure that time has never escape his mind. I called him while visiting NYC just to say  I was at the statue of Liberty. We had movie and dinner night every week. It wasn't perfect, we fought a lot. I found myself jealous when he started hanging out with my friend Morgan.

We made plans that when we were 40 and not married. We would marry.

Then as everyone in my life has.

He left. He got a good job in China. And I was left heartbroken. There wasn't any "happy josie dates" no more concerts. And when Jorja was about 1. I found his email address and wrote him to say I had a daughter and he was like.Good to know. It didn't hurt that he never asked how I was, or even ask anything about Jorja. He treated it like I was someone off of myspace that he spoke with here and there.

I wasn't shocked, well maybe I was. I hadn't sit down to think what I expected from the conversation. Did I think we would be great friends again. No. But I didn't think it would be so cold.

Maybe our friendship ended so bad. I know it did. I was so hurt, even after what happen with my EX, I can honestly say the ending of Dan and I friendship was 2nd most upsetting experience I have went through, besides losing my mother.

It took years just to think about him. I found out through mutual friends he has married a girl from China and is still living there.

I wonder if I ever cross his mind.